As I walk out of my room, about to being a day full of classes, friends, meals, and studying, I pass a container filled with almonds. Casually and mindlessly, I open the container, pop 3 or 4 almonds into my mouth, and continue on with my day. The small gesture of eating just a few almonds reminds me of my days when this occurrence wouldn’t be so trivial for me. The days when it was a struggle for me to eat 8 almonds, the snack that my meal plan required me to eat each day, without feeling overcome with a sense of guilt, worthlessness, and body shame. At the time, 8 almonds was a lot for me. My body was able to feel a difference after consuming just a small handful of nuts. I begin to think, how was I able to function if I was barely nourishing my body? How could I go to school and be able to focus on all of my classes? My thoughts do not result in a conclusion, and I cannot even begin to fathom what my life would look like in college if I wasn’t giving my brain and body the nutrition they need.
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